It is so painful to wear the mask of everything is fine. It's exhausting and depressing to have such strong feelings of inadequacy and unworthiness. The weight of regret and shame can be enough to make you want to end it all. I know, me too. I've been there. It sucks, it's awful and some days it's extremely hard to find reason enough to get out of bed.
Thoughts like, they probably wouldn't even notice if I was gone or they would be better off without me. I don't matter to them and they don't care anyway.
That place is dark and lonely. It breeds even more shame and doubt and suffering in silence alone can make you really think that there's no way out and no solution for whatever you might be going through.
If you're reading this, I want you to know that I care. I don't think that you're too far gone or that your shame is too big to be forgiven. And, I hope that there is at least a tiny piece of what I am saying that touches your heart enough that you would consider a new or different path for your life.
I know that pain can be an incredible catalyst for change and if you are experiencing something that makes you want to reach out, I hope that you do.
I'm not a "professional", so I want to be clear that if you are considering suicide like right now, I want you to text or call the suicide and crisis lifeline at 988.
And if you're not having suicidal thoughts but you know it's time for major changes in your life. I'd like to share with you what we've been working on...
It's a study about taking an incredibly honest and deep dive with yourself and creating or restoring a relationship with God. It's not weird or freaky, it's just really about getting right with you and learning more about an unconditional love that many of us have never had.
If you don't like the word God, I want you to do this study
If you don't believe in God or a higher source, I want you to do this study
If you believe in God or a higher source, I want you to do this study
If you think you know it all and you're closed off and not open to anything,
I want you to do this study
If you think there is no book that could possibly make a difference in your life,
I want you to do this study
If you don't know what you believe, I want you to do this study
You have nothing to lose and everything to gain
You might read these words and decide that it's not for you and if that is the case, I really do hope that you find help and that you find your strength and get back on track with your life and I wish you well, And, if you do reach out or decide to join us on this journey, I look forward to meeting you.
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